hmmm

been thinking alot lately. all the time we spend apart made no difference in the way i feel about u. more i think about it is like coming back like it was meant to be that way. sigh cant sleep. got this dumbass sat to take on sat lol

fuck life, fuck you, fuck everything

school

same shit over again... hopefully there's a different outcome this time. really hoping to graduate and gtfo of highschool. So boring as usual at school, but i see some of them cuties out there lol. all freshman's look like pussies.
Hmmm.. should i continue or quit i cant decide, and i dont give a fuck what others think, if they got a problem then suck my dick fuckers. anyways got to keep a promise i guess.

Cant even remember wtf its like to have a bestfriend lol.

just finished playing pool and oovooing, but idk why this girl....

fuck rainy ass bullshit days mad fuckin boring. So this afternoon i was planning to go out, after i showered but then right when i got out of the shower it was raining. so i was like fuck, and i decided to stay home. i went to cuzzins crib and we watched a scary movie called shrooms. that was one of the dumbest movies i had ever saw. after that i went back to my place and watched more movies but alone. and i ate all day nothing to do... i freaking hate staying home. I was talking to betty wu about mad shit, cause i had nothing better to do.

Oh forgot to blog about wills bday celebration , that shit was sweetbitter. llol for those who follow melol. So everyone got tipsy or drunk and shit. later on me conroy solo and tony and simon went to whitecastle to eat. When we were done i went to use bathroom and these assholes left me lmao. Wow that party was interesting full of things i never knew.

Famous quote "what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas"

so bored nothing to do!!!. already bored of school and seward wanna do other shit. theres so many things i wanna learn just not enough time. dunno when or if i ever will get the time. I really wanna learn how to play the piano and violin, idk y but like yeah idk... I wish i had a real vacation and have some fun. I wanna feel peaceful but idk everything seems to boring somewhat stressful and same routine.

this has driven me nuts but i still remember hearing the words come out of your mouth, feeling like it was all a lies, because we eventually it had to happen sooner or later. it would have never had lasted it was just impossible, i wish the words would have been true. You really were the one and only.

OMG SWIMMING SO FUN!!! thanks conroy for teaching me. conroy if u read this u better learn how to spell my name idiot shit..
i wanna go back to swim some more at that other rec lol.

so it was first day of summer school how cool got a metro card. and i actually got to fill the classes with useful classes instead of that bullshit gym and free second period.

went to seward after mad boring 2 hot to be playing handball.

omg so much water in ear how the hell i get it out!!!

day before my birthday

so im finally taking some time off of whatever im doing to blog because of iris lol. Anyways i got a big day tomorrow i needa be out the house by 6 am omgs... sucks it my birthday tomorrow going to be 17...i wish i was 18 and going to college already. Where i can get a fresh start and leave the high school life behind. And recently ive been asked like a million times about this person who i really dont give a fuck about and ppl just insist of talking about it. I really don't care so idk why u ppl mention it. And its none of anybody's business but me and im not the wont who did anything so fuck off if Ur going to ask me.

so i was going to seward today and jessica treated everybody a drink lol that was some good herbal tea. and me n her played against these 2 guys which were pretty noobish lol. we almos left them on one. and next game we played against Helen and Annie and they tried to get me mad but it didnt work in the end i was the one who got them mad lmfao!!.Played against DENTIST and Wendy and partnered up with tony... it was a total disaster one of the most shittiest games ive played.

Everyone was going to battery park i was going to go but on the way thanks to Annie's idea of just staying in pace was smart lol. it began to rain later so yeah.. good thing we didn't go to batterry park, it stopped raining 2. we where drawing penis everywhere lol . and dentist had to write on my shoes lol, and i dont care lol. later on lily and iris got me a present it was some take out which came in a brown bag that was one serving and 0 calories and 0 everything but it had 100 percent good luck and perspiration and ninja spirit lol. im not a yankees fan but i wanna wear it lol.


after that we all went home and irises boyfriend was on the train and he was taunting me cause he thought she was cheating on him lol.. haha and right when it was at norwood there was this crazy africain lady on train. and my cousin told me to be ready to leave at 6 am omg.. so early lmfao. and there we have it thats my day . I will go and eat and sleep and play some games lol. i hope i can sleep early so i can wake up early tomorrow. and tomorrow i will get wasted after the wedding lol. OMg idk what to do for my birthday ahhh!!!

i hate regents

scared ass hell because i haven't been to US history class in years....because its first period. and im super nervous about the regents. Its 1 am and im still up i don't think i can sleep tonight because of regents. IDK if i should go because it would be a waste of time to go and fail lol. i don't have faith in myself. REGENTS are bullshit. I cant get this off my mind. anyways this isnt helping blogging about it lmao. So im wondering if i should just not go and take the time and study for august regents or maybe jan regents. AHHH this is making me go craZY!!!!!!! Im losing it lol. I cant remember if august was a month or not lol.

Oh MM GEE lakers won whoop whoop . I always knew the Celtics wouldn't have won. i should have had a bet with a millionaire so than i wouldn't have to go to school anymore.

Im totally fail lol i im going to flunk the regents.. and i also did soo fuckin bad in handball that shit is mad wack i should fuckin quit. its boring 2 sometimes.


This lady is such a bad friend....cant believe i even .....
time to move on lol